Heart Like Yours💕

This year with Glitter- 19 (thanks Bob and Sweet Maria Goff for this new term. I love it) has given me ample time to have some self reflection and analyzation. For a while now I’ve felt God calling me to a better way of living my life.
A life completely surrendered to Him in all things. The truth is, I’m afraid to. Who and what am I without these things? If I let go of this or that, what will my friends and family think? Is this really God talking? Isn’t what your asking me to do a little to far fetched God?

What can be worth more than You?
What do I have I wouldn’t lose, If it means You and I look more alike? That’s what I Choose. ~ “Heart Like You” ~ Love & The Outcome

This song came to mind at the perfect time. Just as I was doubting what God was calling me to do and to be honest I was pitching an epic fit over. This song and a dear friend’s Christ – like example happened. Her example was, cleaning out her home of anything that came between herself and Jesus no matter how innocent it seemed at the time. Even to the point of asking her daughter to do the same and it convicted me.
You see, I found my heart troubled and my attitude slipping when I heard of the things that she was choosing to free herself from. It was only when I started to analyze my heart and mind and asked myself why this particular thing mattered so much to me that I finally on a spiritual level understood it.
I had chosen at that time to hold on to things that were causing me to stumble.
I was choosing to put ahead of my relationship with God seemingly innocent things like social media, YouTube and books, local and national news.
At this point I’ve chosen to delete one social Media outlet.

take a careful examination of books that I have on my shelf taking up room that I either shouldn’t have or are particularly a stumbling block for me.
I try not to pay attention to the news anymore. If there is something happening out there that I need to know about, those close to me such as family and caregivers will tell me in a way that won’t cause anxiety.
I’ve blocked social media and YouTube from my phone so I no longer use it for the purpose of mindless scrolling. I’ve installed productivity Apps on my phone that keep me from picking up my phone and scrolling for periods of time so I can get things done and not be distracted. I’ve noticed so many benefits to the changes I’ve made to my life.

My relationship to God has been strengthened with less distractions

I had anxiety issues so bad that at the beginning of this year I kept getting sick with a temperature and rash and no explanation whatsoever. The doctor informed me that I had inflammation and with my family’s help we discovered that right after I had an anxiety attack two days later I’d get sick. Removing social media consumption, news consumption and a change of diet, has made it so that I am no longer getting sick.

My mind is clearer so that I can do more creative stuff like writing this blog post and also writing my novels… more on that in a future blog post… I promise it’s coming!!

When I am approached with negative news or political jokes. I can handle them better and laugh a little. I also realize sooner when my level of tolerance isn’t going well and I can calmly alert those around me or I can politely walk away from the conversation. I couldn’t do that before. I would get mad, say something I shouldn’t online or avoid a person all together just because conflict isn’t something I deal with well.
And those are just the benefits I could come up with in a short period of time.

Now I have a strategy with my social media. I don’t want to get rid of it completely (except for that one outlet I told you about earlier) because I do have some people on there that I don’t have any other contact info for but I still want to stay in touch with them. so before I get on my computer (the only place I access it on) I write down a list of the profiles and pages I want to visit and on which platform and then I don’t scroll when I get there I just go directly to those people.
I’m not saying that I’m cured of anxiety. It still pops up in my head as thoughts race through my brain at all hours of the day. I just have learned how to address it, identify it and get rid of it. Hope this helped and encouraged you all in some way.

Please let me know in the comments down below what you’ve done to help you with your anxiety.

If you’ve read this post so far and your mind is filled with doubt, anxiety and fear and where God is in your life. 

For those who have given their lives to Christ, Jesus is our shelter that we can run to in times of trouble, uncertainty and fear. He doesn’t judge us ever for our fears; but welcomes us into His comforting Presence.

If you are unsure of your standing with Jesus, please hear me out.

 Jesus was born into the world 2000 years ago both a fully sinless man and fully God. He chose to pay the ultimate price for our sin by dying on a cross. Taking on all our sin for us so we won’t have to die spiritually. That’s not the end though, He rose again three days later and went back to Heaven. He wants you to be reconciled back to Him and have a relationship with Him once again.

If you’d like to be sure of where your eternity lies just tell Him you’re sorry for sinning against Him (anything that separates you from Him like breaking the ten commandments) and to please forgive you of your sins. Ask Him to take control over your life and to help you live your life from now on to please and honor Him. No fancy words or actions needed. Just talk to Him like you would a friend. It’s the intention and the heart behind the prayer that matters.

If you’ve prayed to ask Jesus to be Lord over your life, please let me know in the comments I would love to rejoice with you.

If any of you need prayer or something in this post stuck out to you, I would love to hear from you too!!

Until Next Time Rebels!! 💕